There was some sort of light moving across the sky just before bedtime tonight. If I looked directly at it, I could not see it. But, if I softened my gaze and looked close by instead of directly at it, I could clearly see it making its way across the sky.
I want to note something that I keep thinking about. When I wrote the journal entry on the night of 4/14/25, I did not feel very afraid, more excited and in awe than anything. However, I feel as though I was more afraid than I wanted to admit, because the memory of having nightmares that night has started to surface. I was having trouble getting to sleep, and I thought it was mostly due to the excitement after having such a visceral experience. But now, I remember lying in bed after falling asleep and feeling as though I could not roll over. I was facing the middle of the bed and could hear what sounded like my dog, Mia, running back and forth from the foot of the bed to the head of the bed. Her sleeping area is near my nightstand at the head of my bed, and this is not something that she usually does at night unless she needs to go outside, and so I was trying to get myself to turn over, but I could not force my body to move.
Did it take me this long to recall the nightmare because they — whoever, whatever they are — are so sensitive to our fear that they had blocked that from my memory until later?
Also, having only recently learned about something called “screen memories” from a Whitley Streiber book, I wonder if the things that I remember about the night when someone was in the front yard (a few years ago now) are also memories? It seemed that my husband’s reaction to there being someone or something outside was mild compared to how I expected him to react on that night, when I hurried inside and woke him up. Perhaps he thought I had not really seen anything at all.
On another note, I have been feeling so much better physically lately, other than recovering from a virus or cold. The timing again seems suspicious to me. Have these visitors — regardless of who or what they are — helped me in some way, healthwise?
Stranger Than Fiction 